"I'm as deep as a plot to a gay porn"

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 03:30:02 GMT

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Thu, 06 Oct 2005 01:26:39 GMT

I probably won't update much anymore in Livejournal. This blog has completely died. Oh well. If your still interested or ever were (since i never update anymore) check out my myspace, which I tend to update more often.

LiquidScissors

other then that, see ya!

!

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 07:23:44 GMT

Stealing from Sarah again, she always has the fun ones in her journal....

Ask me for my "top five" of whatever you want and I will oblige.

Post this in your journal, and I'll ask for your "top five" as well.

And no subject is off limits...

In other news, and I haven't updated in a while, this or myspace which usually I do one or the other. Whatever.

I have to go in for am ultrasound on my boobs soon, there is a 2 week waiting list for this things I guess. They are so far behind I guess. Its awful waiting, its not like booking a hair color 2 weeks in advanced, its booking a screening that potentially could change my life 2 weeks in advanced. So now I can stress myself a tumor for the next couple weeks. Hooray!!

Beth is coming up this weekend. I finally completed most of my swap commitments. YAY

Also I had my interview yesterday, and I think it went good. I am just so scared of being shot down again, its like... making me so nervous waiting for a call. Just say you'll give me a chance. Or will they pick the pretty skinny girl over me again and again. This is my own problem.

I decided after talking to a friend of mine that I need to go back into therapy. Or this will never end. There are things I could say surrounding the issue of weight and food that would make you think I am certainly crazy. But some things are better left unsaid. I need to learn things tho, even tho I know them. Do I know them?

I guess more so I need to learn how to control them. Have control. Not be controlled by something so.... tourturous. How. Did. That. Happen....

I have been brainwashed into wanting to see RENT and Memoirs of a Geisha from watching the season primere of Nip/Tuck last week. I may even possibly think the movie Fun with dick and jane could be hilarious. Damn you FOX! Actually the first two look good, Gotta love Japanese women... =D and also RENT.. duh. Even without the hypnotising advertisments I think I would of ended up dragging someone with me to see them, cause I know Pete wont go. hehe.

Fuck fuck fuck. I am so stressed and just.... something. give allready. please.

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 02:44:19 GMT

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 18:55:40 GMT

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Post your results.
1) If thera252002 was a superhero, who would be his/her archnemesis? some dude
2) If thera252002 were hanging off a cliff, what would nogoodbyes do? point and laugh... jk. I think she'd help her up
3) How many monkeys could lemonhead84 fight at once and win against? maybe 4
4) Would nogoodbyes and thera252002 make a good couple? definatley
5) Would you set up thera252002 and bigfatfatsoface? yes!
6) What do you disagree with elementsof4 about? ?
7) If jebuell commanded an army, who would be his/her followers? again ?
8) Have you flirted with elementsof4? yes for project
9) If jebuell and nogoodbyes were siamese twins, where would they be joined? the hands (awww)
10) Is jerkforbrains athletic? A little?
11) What color should thera252002 dye their hair? Baby Blue
12) What song/movie would you recommend to fuku_nerd? no
13) Is thera252002 dead sexy? YES
14) Do you think lemonhead84 is hot? duh
15) Do you have a crush on nogoodbyes? of course
16) What would jerkforbrains do differently in your shoes? trip and fall
17) Where did you first meet thera252002? Arts High
18) How tall is jerkforbrains? 5 foot 8
19) Does fuku_nerd go to your school? no
20) Are elementsof4 and jebuell going out? no
21) Where was jerkforbrains born? Kansas city
22) What languages does thera252002 speak? English
23) Is bigfatfatsoface single? no
24) Is jebuell 1337? probably not haha
25) What animal should jerkforbrains be combined with? a zebra
26) What rank would fuku_nerd have in a giant robot army? the highest
27) Does bigfatfatsoface have a dog? yes!
28) What would jerkforbrains give bigfatfatsoface for his/her birthday? cool stuff
29) Is jebuell a high school student? no
30) Does bigfatfatsoface know nogoodbyes? yes
31) Which of your friends should lemonhead84 go out with? her husband
32) nogoodbyes's hair color? blonde?
33) Are fuku_nerd and elementsof4 going steady? definatley not
34) What is lemonhead84's biggest flaw? ?
35) Is bigfatfatsoface a college student? no
36) What is jerkforbrains's shoe size? like.. 9
37) What animal does thera252002 remind you of? a kitty catty
38) Is lemonhead84 a nerd? sometimes.. hehe
39) One quality you find attractive in elementsof4? her soul
40) behindmirrors's eye color? brown
41) Is elementsof4 related to elementsof4? i hope so
42) What is jebuell's favorite movie? guh...
43) What is lemonhead84's favorite color? uh...
44) Is lemonhead84 related to you? no
45) Where was jerkforbrains born? Kansas city!
46) What would you do if behindmirrors died? I would be sad! We didnt get to art yet
47) Has elementsof4 dyed their hair? yeah
48) Do you have jerkforbrains's screenname? yes
49) What comic book character would bigfatfatsoface be? a cool one
50) What do you agree with jerkforbrains about? American greediness
51) When did you last call thera252002? last wednesday
52) Has jebuell been to your house/dorm? no, but my old old house yes.
53) Would jerkforbrains go out with fuku_nerd? I hope not
54) If elementsof4 and nogoodbyes were spliced together, what would it be like? pretty sweet
55) If elementsof4 had a superpower, what would it be? invisability
56) What is lemonhead84's favorite band/artist? um..
57) Are nogoodbyes and lemonhead84 married? no
58) Would jebuell and behindmirrors look good together? probably not
59) Would you wrestle lemonhead84 in jello? sure
60) How long would bigfatfatsoface dating fuku_nerd last? FOREVER!!! weeeee!
61) Could you see nogoodbyes and jebuell together? Noooo
62) What would behindmirrors think of jerkforbrains? I think they would get along well
63) Would you make out with lemonhead84? no
64) Is behindmirrors friends with fuku_nerd? no
65) What planet should bigfatfatsoface be from? uh
66) Does jebuell smoke? no
67) Do jerkforbrains and lemonhead84 go to the same school? no but at one time they did
68) Does behindmirrors do drugs? i hope not
69) Would jerkforbrains be a better ninja or pirate? pirate
70) Is lemonhead84 introverted or extroverted? she was very extroverted, but seems more intro now days
71) What is lemonhead84's favorite food? ?
72) Did bigfatfatsoface break up with you? so many times
73) Is jebuell an emo? no
74) Does behindmirrors drink? probably
75) Is fuku_nerd popular? to me
76) Thoughts on behindmirrors? I want her hair
77) Would you ever date elementsof4? nah
78) One thing you can't stand about lemonhead84? ?
79) What is jebuell allergic to? ?
80) If thera252002 took over the world, who would suffer? no one, that would actually be awesome
81) What flavor of jello would thera252002 be? mystery
82) Does nogoodbyes have a big secret? maybe, dont we all?
83) Have you ever dated jerkforbrains? i wish
84) What exotic animal would behindmirrors like as a pet? ... white tiger?
85) What word best describes fuku_nerd? Hilarious
86) How would nogoodbyes kill thera252002? I hope she wouldn't
87) What would you do if you found out nogoodbyes has a crush on you? throw a party
88) Does jebuell have a crush on bigfatfatsoface? no
89) Does elementsof4 travel a lot? kinda
90) What mental disorder does elementsof4 remind you of? ?
91) What is jebuell's favorite game? ?
92) Is nogoodbyes in a relationship? not that i know of
93) How would bigfatfatsoface conquer the world? with grace and style
94) If bigfatfatsoface took over the world, who would be happy? me
95) If nogoodbyes and jerkforbrains were spliced together, what would be its name? bechelle, mieth, micheth, bethelle...
96) Which president would bigfatfatsoface be likely to idolize? Ab Lincoln (the clone high version)
97) How long have you known elementsof4? since the year 2000
98) What video game does elementsof4 remind you of? resident evil
99) Where would thera252002 most like to visit? HERE! hopefully
100) Is bigfatfatsoface your best friend? always

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 18:34:56 GMT

I got this from Janines journal

Click here.
Take the quiz.
Post your results.
1) What planet should jebuell be from? one out of our solar system
2) What animal does elementsof4 remind you of? a cat
3) If bigfatfatsoface and elementsof4 were spliced together, what would be its name? kaeth or Beelie haha
4) If lemonhead84 was a superhero, who would be his/her archnemesis? her husband
5) How would nogoodbyes kill behindmirrors? haha, um... poison?
6) Would thera252002 go out with thera252002? I think they do... all the time... being the same person
7) What would jerkforbrains do differently in your shoes? walk, cause they are smaller
8) What is behindmirrors's biggest flaw? that she doesn't hang out with me. haha
9) Is lemonhead84 1337? hell no
10) What song/movie would you recommend to fuku_nerd? uhhhhh... I tried to get him to listen to sky salt, but he walked out the room before it loaded. =(
11) Did nogoodbyes break up with you? yes =( haha
12) Are thera252002 and elementsof4 going steady? no...
13) One thing you can't stand about thera252002? I love everything about Thera, true story.
14) Does thera252002 have a crush on jerkforbrains? I doubt it
15) Thoughts on fuku_nerd? Hot stuff
16) Could you see nogoodbyes and fuku_nerd together? NO haha he's all mine
17) What comic book character would bigfatfatsoface be? mystery melon
18) If jebuell took over the world, who would suffer? no one, because she's too nice.. ;)
19) One quality you find attractive in fuku_nerd? um... how about everything
20) Where did you first meet behindmirrors? Arts Highschool
21) If jerkforbrains took over the world, who would be happy? Me, because she would make me her second hand in mayhem
22) Would you set up elementsof4 and jebuell? Nah
23) Have you flirted with elementsof4? For a project (Emily Browns sociology project)
24) Would lemonhead84 and elementsof4 look good together? pretty weird.
25) lemonhead84's hair color? whatever the hell i dyed it last.

I am gonna do a longer one, its fun.

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 03:35:19 GMT

I am going to go crazy! I HATE HATE HATE my job right now. It wasn't so bad, but like suddenly i really HATE it, like cant STAND it. haha. Its so bad. I want to punch the owner in the face more then I ever have wanted to punch someone in my life.

I just want to scream so loud. Everytime she leaves me a message asking me to give her a "jingle" back and everytime she says the word "tenative schedual" I want to make myself throw up. WHY? I dont know, those are some of the trigger words I guess.... UGH.

the 26th couldnt be any farther away! why is it so FAR AWAY!

What makes matters worse is she hired some new girl, some skinny blonde girl, who everyone keep going on and on about how "cute" and "sweet" the girl is. barf. I'm just the big ugly fat freak they hired and now are tired of because I dont suck up to them like everyone else. Bitch. Oh and also telling me that "I know you probably would fit in better in the city" shit, fuck that, I dont even LIKE the city, I dont even LIKE going into the city. She automatically assumes I dont feel like i fit in at her salon because its not in the city. NO, I dont fit in at your salon because your a BITCH and you lable me at the alternative stylist and I'm fucking sick of it.

BITCH!

Okay I am done, sorry I just listened to a message liz left about seeing if I would work tonight which somehow triggered a venting spell.

Love,
Beth

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 18:46:33 GMT

Beth Ann Swanson's Aliases

Your movie star name: Butter And Jelly Toast John

Your fashion designer name is Beth Malmo

Your socialite name is Beffy Heffy Shoreview

Your fly girl / guy name is B Swa

Your detective name is Dog Perpich

Your barfly name is Frosted Oatmeal Cookies Sex On The Beach

Your soap opera name is Ann Oxford

Your rock star name is Bit O Honey Manny

Your star wars name is Betluc Swapet

Your punk rock band name is The Tired Rubix Cube

The Amazing Meganame Generator

all of this is really weird. The only cool thing to come out of this is the band name... The Tired Rubix Cube... which is awesome.

So I am officially starting a band with that name. If you can play any instruments drop me a line, I will need a drummer, a bassist and a guitar since I cant do any of those.

Other such instruments are welcome too! Like painos, spoons, cellos... woodwinds... other such things.

I am serious.

Come be a part of my dream.

your dream.

Together.... our dream.

The Tired RUBIX CUBE!

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 07:45:10 GMT

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 22:48:44 GMT

i wanna marry Fefe Dobson. I can't deny it any longer.

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 07:11:18 GMT

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Mon, 05 Sep 2005 04:26:25 GMT

Who wants to go to school with me? huh? HUH? I dont wanna go alone.

=( anyway. I had a sour apple martini at Olive Garden tonight. It was fun. I felt all rich for a second. But I am not. =( The server we had had the same name as me, Beth, and also her last name started with an S like me. weird.

I bought the second season of Nip/tuck yesterday and devoted my entire saturday to watching it. yay. I cant wait till september 20th for the 3rd season to start!

Well i am saving money like a mad-women so I can pay off my student loan, so I can take out a new one. fun. no.

I completely forgot how to write, what i was writing about and why i wanted to write.

=/

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 06:19:33 GMT

I am getting a new job, hopefully. I dont wanna start yacking about it or i might jinx myself. cause im awesome at that. But it would be the bestest job ever ever ever!!

hey we might actually get to eat this month! YAY!

saving up money, so I can go back to school again, for something different, not because I dont wanna do hair anymore, because I love to do hair, but it will all come together one glorious day. Its all part of my master plan.

Letting hair grow out sucks. Its in that in between stage of ugliness. oh well. one day samson. one day.

Lucy is growing and she is awesome.

Lucy Marbles.

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 02:24:38 GMT

Taken from BehindMirrors

The Challenge:
1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your LJ.

scum buckets. Do it.

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 03:33:30 GMT

I just wanted to make a post saying to all my loyal fans (hahaha) that
I will be selling Resin Magnets and such variety of things at the MN
State Fair, so come buy my stuff! for sure!

My stuff will be featured at the lovley Tools and Screws stand. Don't
miss out on your chance to own your very own lavish hand decorated
resin encoated treasures! I will also be hopefully participating in a
craft fair in December so I guess if you HAVE to wait, you can get the
goods then.

I will also have a website someday soon... when I have money. hahaha. That is where you all come in.. *wink wink*

Tools and Screws has tons of weird junk, so check it out, even if you
don't wanna buy my AWESOME stuff, but shame on you for thinking such a
terrible thought.

the end.

-Beth

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 05:08:18 GMT

It's almost midnight. I feel gross because I ate so much today. I am gonna start doing what I need to do tomarrow. I found all my old weight watchers crap the other day when we moved Petes bed, it was so cool. I am not sure why it is so cool, but I know it is. Maddy at work wanted to look at all the stuff (even tho she's a twig allready) I did her friends hair at work last week and she and I talked about food and weight, because she has gone through many of the same things I have, so I just shared some of my thoughts with her (since shes 16, so she is at the point where maybe my advice might matter, or make her feel better) I know shes at a very criticle age, where the stupid things of the world can get the best of you. It was really cool, I felt like I helped her feel better about her feelings and all that. I think its good to know that there are people out there that feel the same way you do, and have gone down that road. I was really sad when she told me she allready has had an ED, because I know how much that sucks, esspecially when your young like that. You feel like you have to keep it a secret from everyone, and you almost DO, because you never know who will be horrified and who wont, who will judge you.... It wears down on you.

I lost my train of thought.

Oh well.

Anyway. We have moved most of our stuff in now and the apartment is starting to look nice, I hung up some prints I bought in the dollar section at Target, and went and bought more today because I like the way they look. I also got a Coffee Maker from Sandy on Friday night! YAY, and finally bought Coffee today, Coffee is the best thing ever invented. COFFEE SHOTS! There is no need to prozacs anymore, just drink lots of coffee, and all is well. Yay.

I miss MANNY, so much. =(

I bought the second season of Golden Girls the other day, yay for me. I have so many swaps due I cant even think of them all. Pin up Golden Girl ABC CD Invader Zim Let me make your craft thrift store picture revamp DIY kit... I thiiinnnkk... i think that is it. hopefully.

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 05:24:10 GMT

So here we are, officially moved in, AND internet ready. yay! I am having some difficulty adjusting, really missing Manny. Alot. Alot more then I ever imagined. He is my best friend. God i am gonna cry now, just because I miss him so much, its only been a couple days and its like... ridiculous how much I miss that damn dog. Its lightening. That is great, because rain would be really awesome. Pete and Al, and their friend steve took over the living room so I retreated into the bedroom.

Here is how I feel about moving out, and I cant explain why I feel this way, its just weird. Or i guess its more like, moving out of my parents (even tho I did once before) I know that this time its for real, and I am never going to live with them again, I would think ,which scares me, because that just means I am totally not a kid anymore. I am getting older. Get this I just turned 21, and I was so depressed because I am getting "So OLD" and yet have accomplished "nothing"

I have very few people I can call friends without laughing in my head like its a joke. I still hate myself, in this weird way that I'll never understand (Like I love myself, but hate myself at the sametime.... "I love me, but hate myself"....) I get mad at myself for eating. Eating, in general. I feel ashamed. I feel like I lost myself. I get so sick. Its weird when I dont eat, I start to feel so sick like I might throw up, and I actually LIKE that feeling, because I am not afraid of throwing up. So get this, I LIKE the FEELING of starving. I cant make myself throw up anymore. I tried and payed for it, I have done to much damage in the past to even start that shit again. It took me a year to stop asking myself
"should I do it?" After everything I ate. Its such a horrible feeling, to feel guilt about doing something that is human nature, like eating.

I just want to cry for like a day....

I dont understand. And I fucking hate it. Maybe someday I'll feel a little better in my own skin... but not now.

Other then that, I cleaned the apartment, put up some pictures and did some swap junk. I think it will be really nice here once I adjust. I have some cool ideas to decorate, without making the apartment gods angry with me, hehe.

I have this weird feeling inside me, and I cant even explain it, other then saying I only feel like one person. Which makes no sense. ha. But its true. Maybe someone will understand that. maybe.

I miss Manny. =(

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 03:57:32 GMT

well there is no air conditioning here (at my parents) we were supposed to be able to move today, but when we called to see when we could pick up the keys the bitch was all bitchy and told us it isnt ready till monday. wtf. They have had the past to months to make it ready. Its been empty at least 3 months. I dont understand. PISSED.

SO there is no AC and I am going to DIE, I mean, we're in the basement and its this hot, Its HORRIBLE upstairs. And apparently its supposed to be REDICULOUS tomarrow. I am sosososososososososoooo sick from the heat. Us swansons dont tolerate heat well.

It also doesn't help that I haven't been eating much latley, I feel like shrink wrap. I cant really help it tho, because I have had so many migrains latley, more like one really big, long annoying migrain. I get really nauseous, even the thought or smell of certain foods make me wanna throw up.
Yeah so this extreme heat doesn't help.

I have been watching the Andy Milonakis show every chance I get, because I love it. I think its totally funny. I am sad to find out he is really 29. or something. Its funnier to think its an actual 14 year old boy. But funny none the less. Its amazing how many people are so mad that he has this show that they let it really get to them, and make a HUGE commotion about it, I was reading a message board and there are these dumb people who post messages saying how terrible this show is, and how the kids a fat fag, and hes totally gay (like it matters) and its like, Then dont fucking watch it. Simple. Wow. I am so smart sometimes I cant even believe it. Anyway Its totally the kind of humor I love so I am totally in love with that show.

SOmeone is lighting fireworks off in back.

I let Maddy dye my hair at work today because I was not busy and she wanted to do it. It was funny. Yesterday was really good I had a 300 dollar day, and I figured out I have made almost 1000 in tips since I started, which is pretty good. Knowing that now, I have decided I should start saving my tips. Alma is going to open her own salon probably in the next year, and so I would wanna work for her a couple days a week maybe, and help her out, because she is awesome. I am trying to get her to come get a tattoo with me, and shes like "I cant get a tattoo, i have 3 kids" and I was like.... yeah and its 1953. I have like 3 designs I am saving up to get. I pair of shears (just because its resembles my first career), a Panda, with a cub(because I LOVE pandas), and the target symbol (for Erik and Phil, and just for the cause in general) And Thera is gonna get the targer one with me when shes here in Dec. I cant wait. I told Kaelie we should get one together, or she should come with thera and I, if they happen to be here at the same time. Thera has the coolest tattoo on her back, its a bunch of words

Theras Tattoo

This is the poem:

LIFE IS AN OPPORTUNITY, BENEFIT FROM IT.
LIFE IS A BEAUTY, ADMIRE IT.
LIFE IS BLISS, TASTE IT.
LIFE IS A DREAM, REALIZE IT.
LIFE IS A CHALLENGE, MEET IT.
LIFE IS A DUTY, COMPLETE IT.
LIFE IS A GAME, PLAY IT.
LIFE IS COSTLY, CARE FOR IT.
LIFE IS WEALTH, KEEP IT.
LIFE IS LOVE, ENJOY IT.
LIFE IS MYSTERY, KNOW IT.
LIFE IS A PROMISE, FULFILL IT.
LIFE IS SORROW, OVERCOME IT.
LIFE IS A SONG, SING IT.
LIFE IS A STRUGGLE, ACCEPT IT.
LIFE IS A TRAGEDY, CONFRONT IT.
LIFE IS AN ADVENTURE, DARE IT.
LIFE IS LUCK, MAKE IT.
LIFE IS TOO PRECIOUS, DO NOT DESTROY IT.
LIFE IS LIFE, FIGHT FOR IT!

I am pretty sure she wrote it, because she writes things like that. She is very poetic in general. Its just a cool tattoo. I love it, its very Thera.

Anyway I drew up a design for my shears, and plan to get it done relativley soon. Beth is coming up soon and we might go get a matching tattoo or something. I dont really know. She doesnt have any yet. I think she wants a small one, like maybe a musical note or something.

well this was one long pointless entry. haha.

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 04:22:10 GMT

Is anyone else noticing the fad with Pro-ED stuff, everywhere? I would not wish this life upon anyone. I guess I don't see it the same way, I guess I feel it as hurt, I hate the constant battle. I am my own enemy, chasing myself trying to grasp something that doesn't exsist. I just don't see that as "cool" or something to be happy about. I would give anything NOT to be like this. I TRY very HARD to not be like this.

People I know are wasting away because of this. I am damaged because of this. I am at constant battle because of this. At war with myself. Punishing myself. People I love are dying because of this. People I know are struggling because of this. I am at WAR with myself.

Destroying myself. Lost in these numbers. Lost in myself.

Lost in these numbers. These mathmatics. These dimensions.

So many thoughts are going through my mind right now, so many things I feel I need to say, to clarify what I am trying to get across, as a point... but its so jumbled it would come out like this

"i dont...and...figures into...wheather or not.. and...if...just... brething....power.control.dignity"

I cant even focus.

Why would someone want this? why would someone want this? WHY would ANYONE want this.

It is just always following you around like a lost puppy, playing on your weaknesses, and fears. It just beats you down and no matter how far away you run, it always finds you. It is a part of you. An ugly fucked up part of you, forever and always.

fuck.

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 03:56:52 GMT

Manny is such a bachelor..

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 10:20:27 GMT

So its 5 A.M. And I am awake, because I fell asleep at 10, and woke up 3 hours later, and for some reason when I only sleep for a few hours I can't get back to sleep. So I'm gonna go running soon, once it gets lighter.

yep.

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 03:13:41 GMT

so i had this dream, that i woke up and brushed my teeth. with my new vanillia mint toothpaste, and all was well. Untill I looked in the mirror, and half my front tooth was chipped off, and crooked and lame looking. And so I was all freaked out and went to show my mom, and she was all like "oh its not big deal" and so I touched my teeth and like.... the whole top row of teeth just came off, like dentures, only it was my real teeth. And underneath those teeth were little baby teeth, only like if a baby was punched in the mouth repeatedly. So I started whining to my mom to take me to the dentist, NO, better yet the ER I thought, and she was like mad at me for even asking, and I kept feeling like I had to prove to her that my teeth were really screwed up and it was a medical/dental emergency.. so I showed her my gums, which had HUGE blue viens pumping through them, where the teeth were supposed to be (because in my dreamworld I guess teeth grow around gums, so theres gum inside...yeah insane) and she still refused to take me (at this point I wonder why in my dream I didnt just drive myself??) So I asked Pete to drive me, and he ended up calling his dad and having him drive both of us, WTF? So I was at my old neightbors house now waiting for pete and his dad (because suddenly pete was not here, but at his dads) to come pick me up to bring me to the dentist, and so I was outside talking to Chrissie (my old best friend who lived next door) and she was telling me how it was cool that my mom is going to rent out the house (our old house, so I guess we stilled owned that house) and I was like "no i am gonna buy it then, if those dorks moved out" Just then I moved my head slightly and a bunch of teeth crumbled out of my mouth (I now had started a pile of crumbled/shattered teeth, on a news paper, which why the fuck I thought they could be reattached, I dont know...) And it was like, when they show statues come to life in like...shows, how they rock parts just explode off kinda, it was like that, with those dumb fucked up baby teeth underneath! So Pete and his dad pull, at which point I had decided to eat a HUGE peice of Laffy Taffy, like I had forgot all my teeth were falling out, because then i remembered suddenly and started spitting it out (along with more teeth) and got into Pete dads car, which suddenly Pete and his dad turned into MY dad and my older brother, and we were driving into Minneapolis to the ER when my dad got really mad at my brother for making him drive me out to the ER for something so dumb, so they started fighting and then my dad said sorry and look at the Mall of America Faery! And was all amazed by it... It was this really colorful carnivalish big boat, with like those balls that you jump in, and at this point everytime I moved my teeth would explode off my face. Or whatever. I was also really concerned about my pile of teeth, because of all the bumbs we were going over. Thats where i woke up.... very relieved to know all my teeth were still intact. Ok so I have this reoccuring dream where ONE tooth falls out, or maybe two, but this dream really crossed the line. The fact all my teeth were just... chipping/shattering off was like... fucked up and also that no one would help me goto the damn hospitle, it was very aggravating in my dream I remember. And also it was one of those dreams that you SWEAR is real, untill you wake up.
The laffy Taffy in my dream tasted REALLY GOOD!
I wonder tho why I keep having dreams that involve me loosing teeth?
strange.

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 08:00:06 GMT

Well, I have been packing all night, since about 7:30. I went through all Petes boxes, and sorted everything (he said that they were organized, haha yeah... thats why there was like a bunch of used syringes and candy bar wrappers in them. hehe)

I even found 2 never opened containers of test strips, and two full viles of insulin. Isn't that nice. The insulin is probably useless now, its been sittng in a box for who knows how long, since he moved in with me probably.

Tomarrow I will have to start taking everything down from the walls, which will suck because there is a ton of crap. I'll probably leave the posters (most of them) and Matt can just do whatever with them when he moves his crap down here. Everything seems so disorganized still. I hate it. I need to seriously just throw stuff away, but i cant bring myself to do it. =( =( =(

I got some picture of my crafts up on PB so I thought I would post some of the stuff I want to start selling. Liz is going to let me sell my crafts at the Salon, she wouldnt even take a cut or anything either! cool huh? Its pretty sweet.

Warning: Picture Heavy post under the cut....

Bottle Cap Buttons

here is a couple sets of bottle cap pins.

Here is Classic, Old skool (Set) the car one says "vroom" under it. Robot and Boombox. A friend of mine at Aveda gave me the idea for the "Flow me" Pin, thanks Andrew.

These are Salt and Pepper (set) and Illustrate and Abstract, also the backside, to show the back....side... </div>

These Bottlecaps are coated in Epoxy Resin, so they are VERY sratch resistent, at first I used Mod Podge and clear coat, which chipped almost immediatley. With the Epoxy Resin, it takes some effort and desire to scratch the surface. The pin backs are glued securley with E6000. SO no worries. I have so many more, but don't have a camera right now to take pictures. Soon, i will post full sets.

Marble Magnets

I have been making these for about a year now, so I have millions of them (not really, hehe) This picture is horrible. I dont even know why I am posting it, I guess, it shows what they are? Anyway they are all different, cool little magnets. I can custom make these to any of your desires (same with the bottle caps, which can be made into magnets too)

Maybe you can make out some of these, probably not. hehe. I'll get better pictures later.

Cassette Single journal/mini-notebooks

these are made from actual cassette singles. I have a ton of Cassette singles in which to choose from, Beatles, New Kids of the Block, UB40, journey, (lots of hair bands, some I have never heard of) janet jackson, dolly pardon, elton john, Alice Cooper, Warrent, Adam Ant, sir mix-a -lot, house of pain, Roxette, REM, HAnk Williams Jr, Heart.... etc... I have a lot! If it HAS a cassette single I could probably try and get it.
Cassette books
These Books are marky Mark and the Funky Bunch (giood vibrations), Extreme (more then Words), Madonna (Erotica), MC Hammer (It's all good)
I use card stock for paper, some have a mixture of color, I can do custom orders for your choice of color/single (I'll have a list of availible singles up soon)

up close of one of the books

Misc. Craft projects for Swaps or for Gifts

Ductape Purses/hand bags/whatevers.

I made this for a Favorite Movie craft swap, her favorite movie was Harold and Maude (obviously) I picked a favorite quote from the book and based the bag on that. It is made with Ductape and cardboard (to make it steady) It has "industrial" velcrow closer. I used Acrylic paint for the lime green color, the pictures are printed of the computer and mod podged on. I added some other dodads and yarn for a border to add a little more texture. The strap is several peices of yarntied together. Pretty simple.

what both sides look like

Close up of the Quote I chose

Long before the Napoleon Dynamite crazy became sickenly annoying, there was a Napoleon Dynamite Swap. This "clutch" type bag is also made from Ducttape, cardboard, and images off the computer. Its the "reasons to believe" stuff. I hot glued a bunch of buttons on, then mod podged all over. The strap is made out of pop tabs and yarn, kind of a weaved thing

Sifl n Olly!

I made these two items for a Sifl n Olly swap. My partners favorite caracture is Chester. Yay for Chester

I made the Chester pendant out of Polymer Clay, and then basically just put in on yarn with some beads that said "I <3 CHester"

I didn't make the actual bag, since my sewing machine sucks, and doesnt want to work anymore. I bought it at Micheals, just a plain yellow canvas bag. I painted the Chester on using fabric paint and a paint brush.

Paper Heads!

I made these actually in my senior year of Highschool, but want to start making paper again. I loooovvveeed making Paper! These heads are very fragile! I made them by ripping up different colored paper, and adding other misc things to the "batch" Now istead of taking your screen thing, I just grabbed globs of the papery pulp and sculpted it over a foam head I cut in half. Once they were dried I glued the halfs together and added some other stuff, like hair and junk

I only have pictures of these two heads for some reason, I still have all my heads tho.

My next step with this was to do a full body paper sculpture. And oh I will. I have designed the perfect paper making table, I just have to build it! hehe.

Etc weird necklaces

I made this, for some reason I thought it would be funny, because you wear it around your throat, I pictured someone smoking whilest wearing it. I thought it was funny. That is how I want it modled anyway....

Yeah this plane really does exsist, IT DOES! And now its a necklace.

Paintings

These are two of my more recent paintings

and

This is my favorite style of paintings that I do. I like to take pictures and then paint them like this. (can you tell I am in both of these paintings?)

Random skirt DIY recon, blah

This skirt was made for a Japanese Street Style Swap. I did a Doctor theme, and the skirt I made out of two crappy skirts from the goodwil, I had to hand sew them, which took FOREVER, ad then sewed on the kids stephascope and the crosses are painted on with fabric paint. I ripped up the layers to give it more of a...ripped..up...look... like "i got the crap kicked out of me doctor" look. I guess its more nursey, shut up.

Well thats it for now. I am constantly working on projects tho, so I'll probably post stuff when I get a new camera, WATCH OUT! i will be camera happy for a while! Thanks for looking, who ever did. Let me know what you think.

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 00:57:05 GMT

Sooooo.... who has the coolest fucking trunk in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!! If you guessed me, then your absolutley right!!!!! I was at the Goodwill today finding a Picture for a Thrift store picture revamp swap, and in the midst of ceramic owls and ski poles was a big BOX, that has LATCHES like a trunk. And it gets better, because this boxy trunk is not just any old boxy trunk, it is a NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK boxy trunk!!! It even has there FAKE SIGNATURES on it, and different poses of them. This was WAYYY before they became NKOTB, this is from their prime!! there FULL WORDED NAME PRIME! I will have to take a picture of it someday, so you can all see its magnificent glory! starring - Joey before puberty, Donny before he started looking cachetic, and Jordan before he became a gross horny old man! WOO!

Now i have something to store my many many many cassette tape singles I have been collecting! YAY FOR NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK!!

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 23:53:09 GMT

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I have decided, I dont like wool dreads, however I like the way Nikkis turned out. But in general I dont like them. If you want dread extensions, have me make you some really cool ones with synthetic hair, and then put them on your FACE/head but not so much the face.

this is what Nikkis hair looked like before, it was approx. 2 inches long in the back, to 5 inches in the front.

These are some after pictures, I didn't take as many as I would of liked to. Because my camera is a douchebag. owell.